Yesterday, I had a doctor’s appointment for the baby. And I am now officially in the 2nd trimester! (I also officially have swimmer’s ear. Ah, so that is why my ear has been hurting for weeks!) The doctor couldn’t find the baby’s heartbeat so we got to have another ultrasound I was secretly happy that we got to see the baby again – even though it was scary for 1/2 a second when she couldn’t find the heartbeat. Plus, Bill was there and he was able to see the baby wiggling around for the first time.

I took a picture of the ultrasound picture – not the best quality but if you look close you can see the baby.

We had a fun, relaxing day today. Bill got up with Will and let me take an afternoon nap! We laid around this morning, ate lunch at McDonald’s and perused Lowe’s for our next home improvement project. This afternoon we played, played, played. Will was such a busy boy. This morning he collected several important things in the empty clothes basket: Disney World book, toothbrush holder, thermometer case, soap dish, and hairbrush. He pushed these things around in the basket all day. While Bill was grilling dinner Will pushed the basket to the middle of the yard, dump all his “treasures” out, push the basket back to the house then turn around collect the “treasures” and then repeat.

A friend and I have had several conversations about self discipline lately. It’s convicting because I am lazy. Really lazy. I have been better lately at keeping my house picked up and semi-clean. That has been nice because now when we get a phone call that someone wants to look at the house I just have to dust and vacuum instead of put away everything that we own AND clean every nook and cranny. (By the way, someone is coming to look at 3:30 today!)

But the mornings is when I am really bad! I hate getting out of bed – sometimes I just lay in bed after getting Will out of bed and let him play in the living room while drinking his milk. I am a bad mother! I am also bad at disciplining my body – food and exercise. But lately I have been cooking more at home and am really enjoying it. (Note: We never ate out a lot but I didn’t cook good things at home either. We had Shake N Bake every week! Don’t get me wrong I like Shake N Bake chicken but not every week!) I also got a new exercise DVD that I really enjoyed the first day. I was too sore to do Day 2 yesterday but am going to tackle it today.

So, am I just beating myself up about being a “better person” or is there something more profound about self-discipline. I believe there is something profound and spiritual to being self-disciplined. One, we are examples to our children. Especially examples of Christ likeness. Scary! Also, as my friend pointed out, self control is one of the fruits of the Spirit. And self control is not just NOT doing things you shouldn’t do but also DOING things you should do.

Christ has not set an example to His children of laziness and self indulgence – and neither should we. Convicting.

I guess I won’t make Will fold the laundry anymore. He is not very good at it – the clothes always look really wrinkled!