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Mom Monday: A Big Batch of Ugly

{I have a lot on my mind recently so these ideas might flesh themselves out over several Mom Monday’s. I assure you that I’m not sulking around depressed or miserable – but I’m learning some hard and serious lessons.}

For most of my life I’ve been pretty good at pretending to be sinless. You probably know how it goes, you hear a sermon, speaker or radio program on sin and repentance then they ask you what you need to repent of and you think, “I’m so glad I don’t have any sin that I need to confess and repent.” Seriously! I should have been dropping to my knees and repenting of arrogance and pride.

I’ve been guilty {a lot of times} of  “quenching” the Holy Spirit and not allowing the power of God to continually transform my life. I’ve lied to myself saying that I’m “good enough” because I’m not committing any kind of  “bad” sin { you know,like murder!} But being a Christ follower is not about being good enough; it’s about continually seeking holiness.

And then God starts revealing parts of you that are a big batch of ugly. Honestly, when God started revealing these things I have in my heart and how they were affecting my every day life I was pretty disgusted with myself.

Isn’t it great {sarcasm} when God starts working you over and you just want to pretend that it’s not really an issue and then every bible study lesson, every sermon and every radio program you hear has to do with the EXACT issue you’re trying to deny is not a problem for you! You know those heartburn commercial where the food starts slapping the people in the face? That’s kind of what I felt Scripture was doing t0 me. While it is SO painful to go through – it’s glorious on the other side.

Aren’t you SO thankful that our God does not allow us to stay wallowing in sin and death. And that not only does He not allow us to stay there but He calls us out into light and eternal life – the complete opposite!

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light. I Peter 2:9 (NIV)


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5 Responses to “Mom Monday: A Big Batch of Ugly”

  1. Pam says:

    Amen, Amber! I really get what you are saying about the arrogance and pride. I have this strong desire to want to be the best at everything I do, and….not only that, but I want everyone to know about it! This is in church, home, work, you name it! Now, I know this about myself and I have figured out that God knows this, too. Everytime that I do someting good and am thinking “I’m so wonderful”, I immediately mess something up. On those occasions that I mess something up, I’m totally convinced that God is putting me back in my place! I’m sure he is wishing that I would save him the trouble!! But he continues to love me in spite of myself and he continues to save me from myself! Praise God!!

    Love you!

  2. Grandmama says:

    Written well; you’re right about how GOD
    sometimes just calls us out like we do our children
    when they are caught being “ugly”. We know without a doubt that no day passes that we haven’t done something ungodly! PRAISE GOD we can pray for HIS forgiveness and we are clean! Just shuts down our pride quickly!

  3. Honey says:

    Thank you for sharing your heart.

  4. Mimi says:

    I know exactly what you mean. We have been studying about Abiding in Christ in Sunday school and it really made me stop and think Am I really a _Diciple of Christ? I know I am saved but that is not ALL I want to be. I want to make sure that I Am a branch — that does not wither but abides in the TRUE VINE.
    I love you so much, Amber Dawn