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Pesky Holy Spirit

Please read the post before you condemn me for being sacreligious or blasphemous!

Last weekend we had Disciple Now for the middle school, high school and college students at ClearView. It was a great weekend for everyone involved. Bill worked on the technical side of things and I helped with registration and coordinated the lunch on Saturday. It reminded me of how much I LOVED working at the church. When Matt asked if I would be interested in working again for 15-20 hours a week – I said yes!

Over the past couple of days I have been trying to figure out what to do with Will while I was at work. There were several options to consider. Contemplating the decision and trying to figure out what was best for Will took its toll on me. I did not sleep at all on Monday night. I was literally up all night with a restless spirit. On Tuesday, everytime I started to make a phone call or write an email to a “babysitter” I couldn’t do it. I started 3 emails, picked up the phone 10 times. I cried all day trying to decide what to do.I cried thinking about leaving Will with someone who wouldn’t love him as much as I do.

Then in a soft still voice the Holy Spirit said to me – “This is not what I have called you to do at this time.” He kept saying to me over and over- I have called you to be at home and be the best mom that you can be. If I started thinking about the options agian He would say to me – Stop trying to do what you want to do, do what I am calling you to do!”

It is an amazing experience to hear that directly from the Lord. I would say that more times than not I am not open to hearing from the Holy Spirit so I miss what is best for me and what the Lord is calling me to do. I pray that I always have a “soft heart” and a longing to do what the Lord wants me to do instead of what I want to do.

Incidentally, this week in the Esther Bible study we studied about our destiny.What God is calling each of us to do. At this season of my life I strive to be happy, content and awesome at what God is calling me to do. “Who knows?” God knows!

Esther 4:14b “Who knows, perhaps you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this.”

Esther 4:14b


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7 Responses to “Pesky Holy Spirit”

  1. Gayle says:

    From the times I have heard you talk about working at the church, I do know that you really loved it. It is really hard to hear what God has to say to us and because we have our own agenda, we think we know what it best. There will come a time when God wants you to be out in the workforce again and you will know exactly when that time is. Until then, just enjoy that precious little boy. He is going to benefit greatly from having his mommy at home with him.

  2. SYBIL says:

    I’m so proud of you and Bill as you work as much as possible in your church. When God presents you a precious child, he’s putting them in your care to raise, and prepare for when he is grown. Watching and having Godly parents is a blessing he’ll always cherish. Time will go quickly and you will be able to “work” in church again.. Enjoy the time you are able to have!

  3. Julie says:

    I pray that you will continue to seek the Lord’s guidance in all that you do. I love you and I am sooooo proud of you.

  4. Mimi says:

    YOU MAY THINK IT’S BORING STAYING AT HOME SOMETIMES WHEN YOU SEE OTHER GIRLS OUT WORKING BUT BELIEVE ME YOU HAVE THE BEST JOB IN THE WORLD. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE ENOUGH SENSE TO LISTEN TO THE HOLY SPIRIT WHEN HE SPEAKS. ALWAYS REMEMBER, HE KNOWS THE FUTURE . YOUR TIME WILL COME BUT WILL NEEDS YOU NOW!!

  5. Karen says:

    In talking with you shortly after you became pregnant, you told me the pregnancy was “God’s Plan”. I thought, what a wonderful way to look upon the arrival of a baby. I knew this child would be very special because his parents would follow the Lord’s directions for their lives as well as the life of their unborn child. Now Will is here and once again, the Lord has given you instructions for your life as well as Will’s. How blessed you are to recognize HIS voice and obey. You are one of the most unselfish persons I have ever met and your heart will always be “soft”. I can hardly wait to see the plans HE has for you and your family.

  6. becky mason says:

    What a beautiful post! And very encouraging to someone who often, too, feels like I’m not being open enough to hearing what the Spirit is calling me to do. I imagine you won’t miss a bit one minute of work away from Will! :)

  7. Dana Regg says:

    Well I have to leave a message because I told Mom that the pesky holy spirit got a hold of me this week! I have been wanting to get more involved in our church, but since there is nothing really for us to do I have been really discouraged. Well I got an email from AAA this week about the Kick Off Celebration for the Walk. Well I told Mom I would go and then that whole day I was tired and just kept telling myself I don’t think I’m going to go. Well then the pesky holy spirit got a hold of me and reminded me that I’ve been wanting to get more involved! So I went and had a great time!